Another Bitch Story

Who turned the lights off?
I am in darkness
my fears are upon me and I cannot find my way
if I could go back in time
I would have walked or run as fast as I can away from you when I had the chance
and I would have never allowed you to abuse me

You took away my dignity my pride
and I allowed you
Now look at me, you have created a monster
ANOTHER BITCH STORY!

I am fighting back today
as I slum down to the ground
at the mercy of your hands

It took two seconds for sense to finally catch up with me...this is wrong you cannot abuse me

Turn the lights on and call the fire brigade
I am about to light this place on fire
and burn you up in it and watch you at the other side of my hand...begging me to stop

It's too late to think about my action
the ambulance just drove in
Investigations revealed that a male black victim DIED in a fire
because of faulty wiring when I turned on the lights

I'll throw your ashes in the sea
there you could drift far away from me :):):):):):):):)

What is the most powerful and direct path to realizing your dreams.... Your mind!

....HARNESS THE POWER OF YOUR MIND....

to create a life filled with more passion, excitement, confidence, and joy than you've ever dreamed!

Imagine, just for a moment, what it would be like to have all the Love, Wealth, Sex, Happiness, Peace and Joy that you truly deserve?

Whatever your biggest desire or dream is right now, you have the ability to realize it. It's truly within your reach...

It makes no difference how desperate your situation is now... or how out of reach your goals may seem to you today... you're about to discover how you can finally break free from the restraints of your current life and finally start realizing your dreams...

But, before we go into that… let me ask you this one important question:

Have you ever wondered why some people succeed so easily while others, often in the exact same circumstances, struggle and fail?

Successful people aren’t any smarter than anyone else.... they have simply learned how to use a special power within themselves to get whatever they want.... And you can too!

The Astonishing Secret That Will Set You Free …

Right now, you have deep inside yourself an endless stream of intelligence, even genius that can be tapped if you’ll just dig deep enough ….it's called the miracle of your subconscious mind.

And, once you awaken it, "magic" starts to happen...

This intelligence was given to you at the moment you were born. But only a small number of individuals recognize this powerful Secret and use it to its full and infinite potential. Now is your chance to stand among them.

After all, we did not come here to be ordinary. We did not travel this great distance to give up and lie down. We came here to be joyful. To realize our full and universal potential, and to live an extraordinary life.

Let me share something important with you...

Can you remember a time when you where driving somewhere, you finally arrived at your destination, and you have no idea how you got there?

Think about that for a minute - you turned corners, stopped at intersections, didn't hit any pedestrians, used your indicators, your brake, your accelerator... maybe you even changed gears. And you can't recall any of it...

Your subconscious mind took control and drove the car while your conscious mind focused on something else.

Well believe it or not, that's exactly how it happens in life... Your subconscious mind has control. And, it's driving you to the life destination that it believes you want to go too!

Your actions and behaviours without even realizing it, follow your subconscious instructions. Just like your body followed it's instructions when you were driving the car...

"Take this turn, stop at this intersection" etc, ...all without "consciously" thinking about it.

As you awaken to the idea that your subconscious is taking you on a journey, you also begin to realize the possibility that the journey and the final destination may not be where you want to go!

It's Time For You To Know The Truth!
With this new awakening you can begin to understand that where you are now - is Not your fault.

It’s years of programming – predominantly the first 5 or 6 years of your life – that builds your deeply ingrained subconscious program. Or more appropriately: the core values and beliefs that govern your life.

Your core values and beliefs control what you think about, the people you identify with, the way in which you handle money, your level of self-expression, the people you choose as friends and companions...and the goals in which you aspire to.

Most of us adapted these long ago from our parents, teachers, friends or media... and, although they may mean well, often the messages and beliefs they instill in young people are fear-based and limiting. They're also very difficult to erase.

Thus, our minds tend to become too "over-crowded" with negative thoughts and chatter, deeply ingrained bad habits, and old programs that keep sabotaging our effort to bring positive change into our lives...

So subtle is this process that you may go through your entire life burdened by it, never recognizing its presence.

Isn't it time you...UNLEASHED the True Hidden Genius inside you and claimed the things you want from life?

Imagine for a moment, what it feels like, if you had everything in your life you truly desired? A deep love with your partner... an endless supply of cash... success and recognition... a totally fulfilling sex life and more, much more...

Well, the good news is...

You DO Have The Power To

Rewrite Your Reality...
(And, it's actually easier than you think!)...
Despite what you may have heard…

Changing your life doesn't have to be some kind of long, grueling process.
You don't have to renounce all earthly pleasures and go sit naked on a mountain top and meditate for hours a day!

Sometimes transforming your life can be such a simple activity that you don't even realize it...

A number of methods have been created over the years to change your subconscious programming. Affirmations is just one example. Now don't get me wrong, affirmations can, and do, change your subconscious.

BUT it's hard work! You have to do "battle" with your conscious mind to allow your new beliefs of success and happiness into your subconscious (the REAL powerhouse). So...Why Do It The Hard Way?

Wouldn't it be much easier and faster if you could send messages directly to your subconscious mind (bypassing the critical conscious mind altogether)?

Of course it would!

The good news for you is, very powerful mind technique that within a few short weeks, will have your current subconscious destination falling to the floor, allowing your new destination to take its place...http://www.realmindpower.info/rmp/sp5/subvidg2_.php

How successful people get what they want,

A goal is so much more than just a thought in your head. It is more than just a list of things that would be nice to get done “one day”.

Goals are a profound message of who you are and what you’re capable of becoming.

Happy and successful people are fueled by goals. That’s an undeniable fact. I bet my integrity that you could not show me one happy and successful person who did not start with a goal or a vision of who they wanted to become.

But Why Do Most People Fail To Follow Through With Their Goals?

Because most people fail to see goals as a process of internal development. They instead see goals as a list of things that need to be done. And in doing so, they will see every reason and obstacle of why something can’t be done.

* I don’t have enough money…
* I don’t have enough time…
* I have too many other responsibilities…
* It’s too risky…

Newsflash! There’s no REASON for excuses!

Because those who achieve success and those who achieve their goals with purpose and happiness, realize that the true power of goals is not about materialistic gains or earning a list of achievements. They realize that the gains and achievements are a symbol of excellence. They realize that goals symbolize who you are becoming as a person.
“We are not human beings on a spiritual journey. We are spiritual beings on a human journey.” —Stephen R. Covey, author of international bestseller, 7 Habits of Highly Successful People

Goals are the human journey toward the development of your spiritual being.

And when you realize that goal setting and achievement is a process of internal development and not external gain… every single excuse dissipates into thin air. Why? Because when you start seeing things from this point of view, setting and achieving goals is not about resources, it’s about resourcefulness.

You see, a black belt karate student doesn’t have to measurably be the biggest or tallest or strongest person in the world to be the champion. The mark of a champion resides in the fighting spirit, doesn’t it? The resourcefulness, not the resources.

So, it’s not about whether you have the time… it’s about creatively planning your day. It’s not about having the money… it’s about fueling yourself on determination. It’s not about having the right contacts… it’s about tapping into curiosity for creative solutions. It’s not about whether you have the right experience, it’s about driving on passion. It’s not about whether or not you can manage it, it’s about whether you have the resolve.

And this is probably why many other goal-setting programs have not worked for you! They have not identified the true meaning behind having goals. And without that meaning, all you see is obstacles. And when you see obstacles, achieving goals becomes a task… a chore… a difficulty… when in actual fact, it should be a simple pursuit of happiness.

The True Pursuit of Happiness Listens to NO Excuses

You either remain an incomplete slave to your excuses, or you tap into your resourcefulness to become a complete human. It’s as simple as that.

The results you have in your life now are a product of what you do. And what you do, are effectively, your habits. If you want to experience the joys of having a better life, you need better results. And to have better results, you need better habits. That’s why creating new habits that are in line with your goals is crucial to achieving your goals with joy, power and purpose. (Gary Ryan Blair)

http://tinyurl.com/goalsenseispecial

What's the number one secret to change

Automatic Change without will power (Micheal Norman)

"One of the major secret is that your emotions are the greatest point of leverage. Most people try to change their thoughts and habits directly, and it's actually not the most effective way....If you direct your emotions everything else follows automatically...

http://tinyurl.com/MichaelNormanInterview

The Gum under the table

Chapter 1
My mother sat in her room crying, she shouted’ “I hate you.” These feelings of anger and animosity rose after she and my dad argued. My father would lock us up and threaten to kill us if we cried. I saw the shadows of their bodies through the crack of the door, my father raised his hands and when it came down my mother feel to the ground.
Shouting and crying where familiar voices that echoed through our home when they argued. This mood was a domino effect, my brothers would hurdle up and cry and beg my father to stop beating our mother. My brothers stood their in tears mumbling, “leave my mother alone,” while my father beat her merciless. My brothers will comfort me with encouraging words, “everything will be okay,” then they would say a pray.

She would then go to her room threatening to leave my dad. He would walk away and blamed her for his actions.
Like rats when no one is home or in sight they come out in the open, we came out from the room one by one in slow motion, with each foot precisely stepping in a pattern. My mother when she heard us coming she would try very hard to compose herself and ask us if we okay. We could see her blue black eyes and her bruised hands. I immediately started crying, I felt sorry for her. My brothers showed no emotions, they just stood silently.

One evening I saw him pulled a gun to kill her. He dragged her in the back of the house. My aunt immediately called the police. They came and took my mother away.

My mother finally got the courage to leave my father. The same way she started living with my father is the same way she left. She left her home in her early teen as a result of frustration. Her mother constantly abused her, until one day she said no more and gathered her things and ran way straight to my father’s home.
That day she told my dad my grandmother was sick and she sent for her, my father agreed that she go to attend to her. She looked at me admirably and said she loved me and she will come back for me. She hugged each of us and said she loved us. We watched her walked out the gate with our dad and waved the last time. We traced her shadow until we could not see it no more. Not knowing that that was her steps to free herself, she never looked back even though we shouted, “bye mom.” She probably thought she might have gotten could cold feet and turned back or she would turn into a pillar of salt like Ellielar when she left the city of Gormora.

I was still small when she left. My father took responsibility of being both mother and father. I am the only girl of three. He would comb my hair from time to time when the neighbor could not.

I remembered going to school with my hair in two plaits that stock in the air like cow horns. The other kids would laugh at me but I boasted I was proud, because no one else’s father comb their hair.
Growing up in broken is not so under rated as people say. Everybody have problems, the difference is, it is at different level and the way we learn to deal with it. There are two things one can do with a problem, 1 they react to it or 2 acts on it. Fortunately for us my father did not react to it by drinking out his lungs and abused us. Instead he acted on it and loved us.

One day he carried us shopping and I tried on a dress, he told me I looked beautiful and I was his princes. Things were really happy for us. Little then he knew he was my king and my family was our kingdom.

Our kingdom was disturbed one day. I remembered vividly when she walked through that door. I was so happy to see my mother but my father was not, so she left. I rushed to my room forth with and stood in front of the mirror and began to examine my features and I could see her face on mines. I saw the same smile. Then I thought if I kept smiling I will always be with my mother.

Lizann Burke's Testimony...No room for God, by Emily Laing

Chapter 1

My name is Lizann Burke and this is my testimony. Secondary school was the best days that I ever had. This transition from childhood to adolescent was a whole new world that I experimented fully. My body was getting fertilized for germination. My breast began to erect like two lumps of soft dough. My body had special curves in all the right places. There was no exception. My alliances of friends met during this period. This transition marked an unforgettable beginning.
We connected and created a bond that was until death do us part. We made our own rules and lived life to the fullest, never wasting any moment of having fun. The five of us Tricia, Genny, Daniel and Sherry were as thick as thieves.
On some days we just skipped school for a day of joy ride in a maxi. Tricia who knew the conductor of the maxi always organized the road trip. We sometimes go to the beach or the river and hang out. Tricia on the other hand would openly make out with the conductor and sometime they would go into the maxi for a while and then she would come out very disorganized. She later told us that she had intercourse with Dave the conductor. She said she did not wanted to but he said “that is what people do when they are in love and I needed to show him my love for him is real- it was my first time and it hurt”. That was all she said that evening.
The next day we stayed in school. My childhood friend Nikada and I attend the same church and now the same school, she always invited me to attend Inter Christian Fellowship group in school. This group met every Thursday to talk about the bible and coping with challenges faced at school. They adhere to a biblical perspective that leads the lives they lived. Do not matter how much time I turned her down she still invites me. She would encourage me by saying “God is very patient and he will wait, there is always room for you when you are ready”.

Limitation an illusion

Limitation is a noun that means the act of limiting, a restriction or shortcoming. Now then what does limit means? It is the furthest point that is possible or allowable. Let’s examine ourselves as limited human being. What can you picture? Pause for a minute and write down your limits as a person.

Now let’s examine a biblical aspect, Genesis 1:26- …let them have dominion over… dominion here means the power or right to govern or control. Now read over your limitation on what you wrote and Genesis 1:26 and also the meaning of dominion… it is very contradicting. How can we be limited and have dominion at the same time?
Get a copy of the secret; I give you my word once you practice the law of attraction, limitation will no longer exist in your dictionary. These are a few things I have learned from the book and DVD.

Thoughts and ideas are translated by the universe and becomes living truth of our lives. Empirical evidence shows how this behavior is manifested. Theorist Albert Ellis was no genius for coming with this theory since biblical teaching had already came up with these thoughts… (Words are powerfully, life and death lies in the power of the tongue), looking at life here in the things we want to achieve and death as something that we do not want. Now as it is scientifically proven Ellis postulated that people thoughts affect and often change and create their feelings and behavior. Their emotions affect their thoughts and action. Their acts affect their thoughts and feelings. People are therefore capable of creating their problems by their irrational thoughts and also have potential for growth through rational thinking.

By people aligning their lives with positive behavior, it will definitely change the way we think, which will lead to change the way we live. Limitation will exist as an illusion to us for we can do all things…through… now scrap the things you wrote earlier on and now write all the things that you want. In due time it shall be manifested in your life. Let the law of attraction work for you

I AM WRITING MY OWN DESTINY

Here I stand
a thousand time before
Walking away from you
like I always do

It is so hard to let go
of the very thing that
represented love to me

Every footstep I take
I am wondering if it is right

I am
writing my own destiny
figuring out
who I want to be
and no you cannot
tell me what you want from me

I am letting you know
how to treat me

I deserve to be happy
it is all about me
I finally find a way to be free
letting go of you
and finding me

I am writing my destiny
of who I am going to be

There is a time for everything under the sun, "NOW IS TIME TO HEAL"

Now that you are out of my life
the sun sun never shines the same
I feel no warmth again
only hurts and pain

The moon could no longer spell your name
and lead a light to find your star
Only regrets and shame

I am loosing you
yet I am finding me

Love was all I new when I found you
Now anger and hate is all I cry
I fought for you even down to the last try
Now I must fight to save my own life

Sometimes I think I am ready to go and fly
but when I try
I come back denied

So maybe its time to sit down and heal
before I can fly again

I thought I had a fairy tale ending
but who was I fooling
when everyone knew it was a lie
Only I truly believed

Its the baby steps we forget to take sometimes
before we begin to walk
that makes it so difficult to run

Time do heal everything
as I once heard
but it was the self reflection
that made it all better

I needed to let go
but most of all
as my friend thought me
I needed to grow

so I took the baby steps
and now I am walking
but the sun still felt the same
and that's okay
Things do not always happen the same way
twice its bound to change

and it changed me
it changes my whole life
and who I use to be

I have grown
and my experience was my greatest teacher
Now I have learned
hurt brings pain
pain brings reasoning
reasoning brings gain

Now I am thankful for the life
That I have reclaimed